This time I’m writing a bit more serious. That’s because this week has been really, really controversial for me. There has been a lot of things going on. Things, that have gotten me really happy and then things that have gotten me really sad… It feels like every up is followed by down that is twice as hard. You feel like you’re on the top of the world and the next moment you feel like sh*t. Feels like whenever you get happy you get punished for that. And it really gets you. It makes you think about things. Think about what’s important in life and what is not. Think about the directions you’re going to take, decisions you’re going to make, think about the future, the past, the present… It all gets you!
Earlier this week we were having a home going party of one my best friends here in Spain. Of course, it was fun, but then these kind of happenings have also very sad aspect in them. Saying goodbye is never easy. And although you know it’s not probably the last time you see, you also know that things will never be same. It reminds you about how all this is here only for a while, temporarily. Of course you “know” that beforehand, but still you get surprised how it hits you. You meet so many new people, make so many new friends, have fun together, enjoy the time and the people… and then it’s all taken away and you have to go back to how it was… Except that nothing is how it was anymore.
But with every ending, there’s a new beginning! Suddenly, at the very same home going party. I met someone new, maybe someone I had been looking for, maybe someone more than a friend! Maybe, just maybe someone who totally changes my direction! So, like I said, it has been really controversial week! The feelings go up and down all the time - in a blink of an eye.
When you think of it more, I think it’s like that with everything, when you are in here… or anywhere else away from “home”. The thing is, in here, you haven’t got anything stable, nothing familiar and so you have a “fresh start” (like I mentioned in my earliest posts). But in the same time, you have to build everything new: routines, relationships, everything. And just when you’ve done that, it’s all blown away! So nothing is certain, you can’t trust on anything. But at the same time you are still reliable on just the things that you have at that moment, just the people you have at that moment! It all makes you live on edge. All the time, all the time. I can tell you, mi amigos, it’s heavy!
But still, in the end, I guess that’s what this should be all about? Living in the moment. Carpe Diem!
See the mirror in your eyes
See the truth behind your lies
Your lies are haunting me
See the reason in your eyes
Giving answer to the why
Your eyes are haunting me!
Falling in & out of love
in love, in love
Falling in & out of love
your love, your love
See the truth behind your lies
Your lies are haunting me
See the reason in your eyes
Giving answer to the why
Your eyes are haunting me!
Falling in & out of love
in love, in love
Falling in & out of love
your love, your love